You might have heard at some point that I am now getting one bottom left tooth pulled instead of two on the top and bottom on my right side. Nice! Kind of.
After the call I felt relief about not losing 2 teeth, because A) that sucks for obvious painful reasons, and B) I imagine it'd be hard to hide 2 missing teeth so near the front of my mouth. I guess there's always a chance that something could go wrong and I might have to get more taken out, but I'm gonna stay positive. I'm sweating even after just writing that. Hopefully I'll be lucky and this will be it.
Unfortunately today I am feeling that creepy overwhelming sadness about losing a tooth. I remember last time, 2 years ago, I was really sick from an infection, and getting my tooth taken out was the cheapest and (I thought) easiest way to get better. I didn't have dental insurance and I already knew how much a root canal sucked, so it felt like my best option.
I had just come back from vacation in Rhode Island, which I was mostly able to enjoy by not thinking about the events taking place immediately after I got home. That day, which I believe was a Wednesday, I went to work and spent the entire day in the back room crying! Literally weeping over the thought of not having that tooth anymore later. Even now when I talk about it it makes me cry! It's certainly one of the strangest feelings in the world. I think teeth are gross and weird, and there I was crying over one.
The aftermath of that fairly traumatizing experience was me laying in my bed taking pain killers for like 2 days. I remember at one point I was finally allowed to rinse my mouth, and I decided to peek at the stitches. I thought to myself, that's not so bad, and then passed out while trying to run to my bed. I woke up IN my closet and called my dad's cell phone even though he was in the house with me. I think it's fair for me to be a little nervous about this happening again.
So I'm starting to feel a little worried and sad, even though life goes on. Plus, unlike the last tooth, there won't just be a freaky empty space there--they're doing this to make some room for my soon-to-be straight teeth. Ha. Soon, but not soon enough.
Plus it bothers me, though there's nothing they can do, that I will still have a big empty space on the right side. I guess the issue with my bottom teeth is they're too far over to the right already, so making use of that space would make me look weird.
AGHH I don't know how to feel about any of this. The fact that I know in 2~ weeks I will be binge watching Gilmore Girls while bleeding out of my mouth for several hours, half dead from eating only ice cream all day, is kind of horrifying. I feel like most terrible things happen so unexpectedly; it's weird planning out an entire day that will be spent with me feeling like shit!
However, that is nothing compared to what my sister Sherri did a few years ago. I drove her to the dentist one afternoon, just in case she didn't feel well after, so she could get one of her wisdom teeth pulled. I went on my phone for like 20 minutes and she came walking out, having been awake for that whole ordeal (which I don't really recommend, even though I did and will probably do the same again).
Anyway, I brought her to CVS to get her pain meds, she took one, and then laid around the house. Earlier that week my siblings and I discussed seeing the new Evil Dead movie, even though the trailer gave at least 2 of us horrible anxiety. Sherri wasn't sure if she should, but in the end decided it would be fun for us all to see it together. I remember watching through my fingers, because I hated horror movies back then, and looking over at her to see her LAUGHING at the carnage happening in front of her. Holy shit.
So while I can't say I'll be watching anyone chop their own limbs off, I know deep down I'll be fine. Especially because everyone keeps telling me it's different, since this tooth is smaller and not...sickly.
That's all I have for now. I'm sure when that day comes I will be weeping all day at work, but I'll let you know.
Recommended Listening:
It - Rich Aucoin
And just for fun recommended watching: Dirty 30 for the lolz and Blair Witch if you enjoy watching movies with your eyes shut for most of it!
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