Since at some point almost every morning I check Facebook's "On This Day", I noticed that just about a year ago I started this whole insane Invisalign process! Time really does fly...even though I'm not really having that much fun (ha ha ha).
I recently started wearing my trays for 1 week at a time instead of 10 days; it's hard to believe I ever had to wear them for 2 weeks each! I will admit it's been significantly more painful to switch to a new pair since I've had less time to adjust, but if it means being done by Christmas then I'll take it.
Currently we're at tray #28, so about 1 or 2 trays ago the moment I've been waiting for finally began - those top 2 stick-y out-y monsters started moving! WHAAaAAaAaAAt!!!
Today when I took my braces off to have a coffee, I smiled at my reflection for a minute, and really could see a slight difference already. The true test will be when I see my siblings later; if they notice then I think soon everyone will, too. If not, it's not the end of the world since I'll only make more progress from here, but I am still hoping someone does notice... I'm going through a lot of pain for this, guys!!
Other than that not too much has changed in my life. If anything I have felt kind of stuck, hence me not updating this for 2 months. There are only so many times I can talk about how nothing happens in my life so I don't know what to write about most of the time.
I am working on figuring it out, though - this creative block I've had for the better part of 6 months. Part of it is that weird anxiety about not being good enough, and not knowing how to start when you have a blank page waiting for you. Another part is my actual life-anxiety, which unfortunately caused me to dread a trip to CVS yesterday. (Which I did survive, and here I am, trying to recall what was so scary about dropping off a prescription).
If this summer has had any sort of theme I'd say it is ~self discovery~, because I am really getting sick of being afraid to do basic things (ie. saying good morning to coworkers, or going grocery shopping by myself - I know, I must be really fun at parties!!). It really is tiresome to be afraid of literally everything, so I am taking steps toward...not...being...so nervous.
Honestly part of that process is being honest with my 15~ readers. So hey guys! I've totally joked about it before but I am truly an anxious mess!!
It really will be okay, I think, because like I said I am working on it! At this rate it may take, oh, I don't know, 30 years, but eventually I will at least sort of get there.
I just had to text my siblings to be reassured that it wouldn't be weird to share this...on my personal blog in which I have 100% control over what I share (!!!). I mostly don't want to be a bummer, though right now I am actually feeling pretty great and only 10% anxious as opposed to like 90%.
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| JK, it's 11am |
I've decided I'm going to try really hard to enjoy the last bit of summer. We are going on another little trip to Cape Cod soon and I am hoping to avoid any secret feelings of anxiety while out and about! I know things are happening in the world outside of my room with my cat and my Netflix, so I'm going to try to get out in it a little bit more.
Now that I've opened this particular door, I imagine my ridiculous anxieties may come up again in the future, so hopefully at least some of you can get something out of this!! I think I will wrap this up before I get too embarrassed to click publish.
In other news I have been watching the Netflix show GLOW this week and it is the best thing I've ever seen. Please watch it.
Alright, I hope everyone has been having a nice summer and all that. I'm going to try to update a bit more frequently, because blogging is actually a lot less scary once I actually do it. Perhaps I'll write about my super-awesome-fun Cape Cod trip or something. (Now that I've put that out in the universe it will be super!!)
OK BYE.
Recommended Listening: Wishing Well - The Oh Hellos (best to listen to while driving into a sunset, you're welcome!)
