It's Monday, which means this post shouldn't exist for 2 more days. I'm sure I will have a lot to say once I'm wearing my trays on Wednesday, but I need to take this moment to express the many feelings I'm having right now.
On one hand, I'm SO excited. This time tomorrow I will be wearing my braces! I barely slept last night, and I have a feeling it'll be the same tonight. I can't believe something I've wanted for so long is finally happening.
On the other hand, it just hit me that I will look so different after all this. And I'm sure it won't be bad, but I worry that it won't be very me. I've had teeth like this for more than half my life. And now here I am changing it all. I know it's a slow process and I'll have time to get used to it, but I guess I don't always hate my smile.
Some days I catch my reflection while I'm laughing and immediately sober up because, yuck, that looks terrible!
Other days I see what I assume my family sees, which I guess is what they can only describe as the endearing "Stacie smile".
So I guess the many emotions I mentioned before come down to just 2. I am excited and I am scared, which is probably normal.
It feels like when you're on a roller coaster and you start climbing that first hill. It's too late to stop; you have to go the whole way! And you know it's gonna be so fun even if you get whiplash at the bottom of the second hill, but you're still kind of freaked out. In the end, it's worth all the hassle and waiting, even if it doesn't seem like it at first.
I suppose I will deal with this in the same way: run out of the orthodontist's office with my arms in the air, screaming.
Recommended Listening: Juniper Lane - Jane Levy (Bang Bang Baby)
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